A Voice Through the Silence

A Voice through the Silence

The room is empty

My friends are gone

They've all given up on me

Nothing moves

Except for what I think is a fly buzzing around

It seems to be reminding me that death is never far away

But there's nothing else sounding

It's quiet enough to only hear my heartbeat

And even that is a little faint

It is silent

I stopped talking

And nobody hears me

Deep inside I can scarcely hear my mother's lullabies

And my childhood cheers

But they're all gone now

It's just me in a quiet room

No sign of real life

Well, I guess that would be me

But I can't speak

I've grown too weak

And I don't feel the need

I ran out of dreams

I no longer wish

I'm at a loss of hope

Life swayed me back and forth

To the point that I no longer move

I'm just laying on this cold floor

As I stare up at the ceiling

Morning creeping in through the skylight window

“leave me alone!” I yell inside

“I don't want to wake today.”

But the sun is too bright

It keeps pressing through

I must close my eyes

I find myself squinting

The glare is in my eyes

What a bothersome thing, when the rays are on your face

I'm not sure how, but I had to move

I got on all fours and made my body upright

I'm on my feet... it's been a while

And as I make my way to the bathroom,

It seems the sun is following

I can still feel the heat, and my body feels warm

I look up at the mirror above the sink

It's been a long time and I'm afraid

I don't think I know that image looking back at me

Tears begin to flow

I didn't think I had any left

But there's one more

As if to say, “I've got something left to say”

And I get choked up

I begin to cough

The coughing leads to crying

And for the first time in a long time,

I hear my voice again

My voice...

It used to be so strong

It used to be inviting

My voice...

I used to sing

A long while ago, before I became depressed

I used to laugh

I used to talk

I used to

And now for the first time in so long, I heard my voice again

I don't really know why I did it, but something in me was crying out

And as I stood there on my feet again on the bare floor and before my own image

I felt the cold on my feet, and it felt good

I tried a smile, and could almost see myself again

And then I did it... I said a prayer, I know God was listening too

I know because soon after, I had the courage to face the world again