It's been so long since I've done this, I hope I didn't forget how.
Lately, I forget most things. Why is that? I try retelling stories, an event that took place hours earlier, and I cannot get my details in order or even recall what really happened!
If only it was that simple to forget the things that I want to forget.
Like I want to forget the last time I was unkind or the last time my thoughts were nothing far from sinful. I want to forget all of those things that I'm not proud of. I want to forget my mistakes and failures.
But do I really?... When I really ponder on these thoughts, I realize that I don't actually want to forget the "not so nice" side of me. You see, if I forget those things that point out my weaknesses, if I overlook the part of me that is far from perfect, then I will also forget my need for my savior.
If I cannot recall the last time I "messed up" or the last time I fell short of what would have been something amazing, then I will also not recall who it was that forgave me. And if I do not recall who forgave me, then I will forget the most important thing there is to life... knowing God.
And if I do not recall knowing God, then nothing else in this world matters and my life has no real purpose. And if my life has no real purpose, then there's no point to my existence. And if there's no point to my existence, then Woe is me!
Therefore, I pray I never forget my weaknesses and my shortcomings so that I may always remember that God is the one who gives me the strength I need. And God is the one who shows grace and mercy over me. And He is also the one who delivers me from my past mistakes.
He is the one who forgives. And the one who doesn't hold my sins against me, but rather uses my mistakes to build me and others up.
He restores me. He uplifts me. He heals me. He leads me. He sustains me. He loves me...
May I never forget.
Psalm 103:1-11, " Praise the Lord, my soul; all my inmost being, praise His holy name. Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagles. The Lord works righteousness and justice for all the oppressed. He made known His ways to Moses, His deeds to the people of Israel: The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. He will not always accuse, nor will He harbor his anger forever; He does not treat us as our sins deserves or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him..."